Druid Life

I think it’s really helpful to pause now and then and ask what the relationship between my life and my Druidry currently is. It has certainly changed over time – I have along the way been a student and a teacher, I’ve been a participant and a leader, a ritualist and a non-ritualist. There have been times when prayer and meditation have dominated, and times when it’s been mostly about service. Druidry has many different aspects to it, and different things come to the fore at different times.

This year, creativity has dominated so far – mostly in the form of Wherefore, a fiction series I’m doing on youtube. I’ve been talking about animism, magic, the nature of reality, and environmental issues under the guise of a silly story. You can find series one here – https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLd-6bmI3UuPDjEp1YqIYY6GkVTmG-1qux 

I’m re-thinking my work and service – I work for my local Transition movement, I volunteer for the Woodland Trust, I write for Pagan Dawn, and I’m getting more involved with my local theatre festival. I’m limited mostly by energy at the moment. I want to do more, but exhaustion is an ongoing problem.

Getting outside to walk, and sit, to witness the cycles of the seasons and encounter the wild things remains really important. Lockdown gave me some serious challenges – not having a garden didn’t help. But, I found ways to get out there and to stay passably connected.

At the moment, meditation and prayer are more to do with how I use my new altar space and I’m not doing as much along the edges of sleep as I was. This is in part because it no longer takes me so long to get to sleep!

This year has brought me a lot of re-thinks around divination and intuition – two things I had let go of some time ago, that now once again have a place in my life. It all feels really fragile at the moment. I’m conscious that if reality doesn’t turn out to line up with what I think I’ve been intuiting, this could get messy. Alongside this, there have been some shifts in experience around magic, how I think about deity, and how that might fit into my Druidry. This is all far too fledgling to talk about but all being well I’ll be back when I can share something more coherent.

The single biggest question right now, dominating my life, and my Druidry, is how to imagine the future. Climate chaos and the awful state of our politics make it hard to know what to do. There are personal complications as well. What I want, and what I have the financial power to do are currently a long way apart. This summer tantalised me with possible ways of changing that, and I am waiting to see what, if anything, is really possible. Right now, I have to embrace uncertainty, be as peaceful as I can be about what I do not know, and figure out how to stay open.

Recent weeks have brought many lessons about how much choice I have. There are important areas where the lack of choice is really hurting me right now. I’ve chosen not to protect myself from that. I’ve chosen to be open hearted and I’m conscious that what I’m doing is choosing who to be in face of circumstances I have little control over. Choosing hope is really hard work when there’s nothing much to support that. Looking around to see what will support hope, and who will, has changed how this works for me. Choosing faith when there’s no evidence – well, that’s the nature of faith and I’ve never been much good at it, but here I am trying to do it. I have no idea how this might impact on how I do my Druidry in the future, but it certainly could.

About Nimue Brown

Druid, author, dreamer, folk enthusiast, parent, wife to the most amazing artist -Tom Brown. Drinker of coffee, maker of puddings. Exploring life as a Pagan, seeking good and meaningful ways to be, struggling with mental health issues and worried about many things. View all posts by Nimue Brown

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